Thursday, May 9, 2013

The Love Affair Begins

Sometimes I randomly come across amazing blogs while sinking into the dark hole of cyberspace when I really should be upstairs getting my much needed beauty sleep. While cyber surfing, I found this uber-talented (I always wanted to use the word 'uber', which is still coming up as not a word on my spell check) painter's website and blog. I started reading her blog and I felt an instantaneous connection with what she was writing about. Here is a snippet...

"Here’s the deal.  I have a story in my head that goes something like this:  “Writing a blog post feels like homework.”  Followed by: “I don’t like homework, so I’m not going to do it….so there (insert whining voice).”  Let me just say that this is not the most mature or professional attitude to attach to a potentially integral part of my business.  I get that.

Let me also say that I am really ready to shift my relationship with my blog.  The truth is I actually get quite excited about writing and I certainly have no shortage of epiphanies, experiences, reflections, emotions, unfoldings and aha moments to share.  I also get super turned on by authentic expression, vulnerability, new ideas and sharing from the heart, so what better place to practice all these endearing activities than here on my sadly neglected blog?!

But, here’s the thing.  I’m simply not inspired to assemble long thought-out blog posts full of beautiful pictures, poetic writing and links to amazing things.  Nope.  I need this to be easy.  I need to make  friends with my blog and it needs to be the kind of friendship that feeds me rather than depletes me.  Seriously.  It’s been too long and we are officially estranged.

So, how do I reinvent my relationship to this form of expression?  I’m pretty sure I just need to get out of my own way and let myself off the hook.  With so much going on in my life right now, this practice of writing and sharing simply needs to be easy, soul-filling and spontaneous…just like the way I paint.  Similarly, I need to give myself permission to be imperfect.  To be candid.  To be raw.  To be authentic.  To follow my intuition.  To let it flow.  To trust that what arises in the moment is meant to come through. To explore parts of my life I have yet to explore.  To remember there are no mistakes.  Hmmmm…sounds familiar."

This artist, Flora Bowley, touches on what I have been feeling about my blog and I think it relates to so many things in our lives. Sometimes performing a task that we used to enjoy at some point becomes tedious, just another thing we need to check off of our to-do list. My mom used to say that if you are working on a project and it becomes frustating, put it down and take a break. I think this is good advice and I would go further to add that when returning to the  unfinished project, make an effort to alter how you perceive the work you are doing. Bowley redefined her relationship with her blog and mentally reframing how she felt about writing to transform it into something she truly loved, something that feeds her.  

It was serendipitous that I came across this artist, as she has inspired me to take on the 30 Day 'Love Affair' with my blog. They say imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, so I will take her great idea and run with it. 

Here are some photos from a few of my favorite muses.

Love & Light,

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