Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Caroling with Kleenex

Why is it that Christmas carols make me cry? I just hear a note of Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas, and I break out sobbing. The worst is when Rolwf the Dog from the muppets sings it; it is all I can do to remain emotionally stable. And Silent Night, forget about it. Have you ever seen that Pampers commercial that just shows sleeping babies with Silent Night playing? I lose my shit every time. 

If I was to look at this problem objectively I would be able to diagnose my response to these festive songs. The holidays exacerbate so many mixed emotions for people, throwing in the chaos and stress of finding "the right gifts", spending more money than a mortgage payment and eating cookies, candies, and food that makes standing up physically challenging. 

I remember when Cole was born in the beginning of November. Because I was a first time mom, I did not know a whole lot of kids songs beyond Twinkle, Twinkle and Take me out to the ballgame. So for the next three months I had Christmas music on all the time. I would sing Oh Christmas Tree and Jingle Bell Rock into the wee hours as I held Cole in my arms. I think that is why today Cole loves Christmas music, and he knows the songs by heart, as if he absorbed every sweet (albeit off-key) tune I sang. Hmmm, my Freudian diagnosis would be that it appears I may have a slight association between Christmas carols and being a sleep deprived, hormonal new mother. Maybe I should listen to few Marilyn Manson or Eminem Christmas Carols once in awhile to toughen this cry baby up. I can hear Eminem, Have yourself a Merry ****ing Christmas, on second thought that would not be really appropriate for the boys. We will stick to the Chipmunks.

Here are some fun photos from the past few days.

Love & Light,

I was folding laundry in my room watching the boys through the window. They played and laughed for an hour out there. It made me happy, I had to take a picture.

Tea time with Nolan. This was my tea set as a little girl.

It has been a year since Creed dog passed away. This is the dogwood (below) we planted over his body. And the flower (above) that we received as a gift in memory of Creed, has NEVER bloomed UNTIL the anniversary of his death, THAT DAY, December 1st!! It was a sign. I miss him.

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